Global Priors' Council
Chicago
July 28, 1979
We want to recall the examples, illustrations and
images we have used this summer to give ourselves a framework
for talking about the Way this next year. We want to put down
some pillars of the journey we are on. I have nine categories:
the earthrise, the primal community, the league, the journey,
the finality of the Way, the return to a life of service, the
seductions, the mythology, and the methodology (or implications).
This spin is also on the corporateness of the Way. In our history
as an Order we began with the Question of God lecture in our basic
course, RS1. We talked about the World Wars and the destruction
of everything we ever knew. Then we also talked about the image
of Sputnik, the image of possibility, of adventure and of creating
the new standing on nothing. This summer we have decided to create
our third major symbol....it is not the wars and it is not the
Sputnik....it is the Earthrise. Standing on the land of the moon
looking at the land we have left, we have been cut off from this
land and we will return to this land. Everyone alive today has
a particular selfconsciousness, just as strong as the destruction
of all world with the war and the possibility of creating out
of the new. I once thought there could not possibly be another
image but the destruction of all worlds and the creation of all
worlds, life and death are rather inclusive. Some other dimension
has come into being, however. We are conscious today of the necessity
of standing somewhere, feet planted in covenant, being bound to
a place and seeing the whole world in perspective of that place.
In Park Si Won's spin the other day, we heard, "We are concerned
in finding the place in which to have dialogue with the universe."
Now mind you, the earth knows about the destruction of all roles,
patterns, covenants, everythingthat is still true.
The earth knows about the openendness of possibility. The earth
knows about hiding from the destruction and denying that there
is nothing to hold on to. The earth knows about being in panic
over the openendness of floating from one thing to another, anything
to avoid commitment. Yet today we are living in a new image of
the universethe Earthrise: you are standing with your
feet planted in a place that is not your home and never will be
your home. You know that you are bound to this earth, but standing
on another land. You are looking at the place where we are bound
together in covenant.
I am discovering that I am no longer moved by the
suffering of one child or the tragedy of a senseless death. My
concern is focused on communities. Communities are dying. They
are in pain"We don't want to die, we want to
be vital...Our families don't work, our jobs don't work, our social
life doesn't work." In our history, we have always said we
chose Fifth City, an urban project, because we wanted to be where
the problems were exaggerated, where suffering was intensified,
so we live among the poorest of the poor to be able to see clearly.
Now we discover that every community we touch has those exaggerated
problems. There is no place where communities do not experience
dying and looking for a new place to stand. Now mind you, they
are on the other side of death. Their image is not on dying, they
are very vocal in what they want: to work together without the
usual infighting, to have meetings where they actually deal with
issues and not everybody's opinions. They want authentic roles
for all phases and groups, the want the community to look good,
and they want places inside and outside to be together in sports,
conversations and activities. Women and youth and minorities are
particularly vocal. They want leaders to walk with them, to eat
with them, live in the same place they do and see as they see.
The various elections particularly have shown that this past year.
There are those who have decided to appear in communities
and in the neighborhoods. They are the League. They are the incarnation
of care. They are God in disguise. They appear in the community,
stand with them, live with them, take on their contradictions
and suffering and they are disguised. One really fooled us in
that disguise because he came as a baby and grew up in the community.
In our mythology, Jesus did not come as a full grown man. He had
to grow up in a community. He was one of the people. I am getting
clear that I do not live outside this community, learning to be
a guide and one day I show up in a place, ready to guide others
on the Wayit doesn't work that way. Being a guide
is a process of being in the midst of the community: growing up
with it, having parents, brothers, sisters and neighbors, walking
the same path they walk, having the same pain they have, and seeing
what they see. The Buddha Gautama riding on his horse and escaping
the palace where he had been separated from his people, sees the
old, the sick, and the dead for the first time and decides that
he would have to live among his people.
The last two years, I have been looking for a nativity
scene. It became a passion with me. I wanted a nativity scene.
I have so much decor in my room now there is no place I could
possibly put it, but I had to have a nativity scene. I looked
everywhere. I didn't want one that was glued together and made
out of plastic. I wanted one with moveable parts so that I could
play with it, put Jesus over here and the Shepherd over here and
I wanted lots of animals. I didn't want just three wise men, Joseph
and Mary. I tried to decide why it became so important. The cross
has been in my room for some time as my symbol of expenditure
and I have always had symbols of carvings of men and women who
are local men as my particular passion for the moral issue of
our times, and I have had masks on my walls as symbols of those
who have been burned up because they have seen the face of God.
Now I want to put in some new symbols. I want a symbol of the
incarnation, of where men have dared to live in community. I have
chosen the baby Jesus, unprotected by anything, and want the Buddha,
Gautama on a horse, seeing the sick, the old and the dying, and
I want one of Gandhi with his spinning wheel. I want symbols of
where we have seen incarnation in history. We need to have some
spirit conversations on roads and paths we have walked. I think
that is going to be key this next year. I don't mean roads as
a metaphor. I mean actual streets we have walked down, the roads
we have driven and paths we find ourselves on.
Now I want to talk about the time spent on the journey.
I want to talk about the journey to the center of consciousness
and the return to a life of service. This journey is a spiral,
we go on the same journey again and again, we are always going
on this journey, deeper and deeper. For the sake of analysis I
want to describe it as a one time only journey. Everybody is on
a journey, but if they are not conscious of the journey, it is
as though they were never on a journey and if they refuse to continue
to be on the journey then they forget that they were ever on a
journey. It was as though they were never on a journey. This spin
is for those who know we are on a Journey and have been for a
long time. I want to make a distinction between the consciousness
everyone has who becomes conscious and the life of knowing and
doing for those who have been on this journey a long time. Somebody
wakes up today and they know everything I know. But there is a
difference for those who have been on the journey and know they
have been on the journey a long time, and it is not consciousness.
The marriage covenant is an example. We are always amazed that
someone who has just gotten married has as much consciousness
about what a marriage covenant means as those who have been married
for 25 years. There is, however, a difference between the couples
who have been married for 25 years and those who have been married
for one year. The difference is not consciousness; it is not knowledge.
We all wake up in the some consciousness. I know there is a difference
if you have been in a covenant. You have created a pattern of
humanness that is interwoven with your particular experience in
covenant. There are basic patterns of living that bind you to
this earth. Until we read Kazantzakis in 1968, I had not sensed
myself on a journey. I was on a journey, but I didn't know it.
Now, since I have become selfconscious about that journey,
I have added on to myself. Anybody today who discovers they are
on a journey knows as much as I do, but there is a difference.
This self conscious journey I have been on has created knowing
and doing patterns that have changed me forever. The difference
is presence. You live in covenant and there is a difference in
presence. Not in consciousness, not in what you know, not even
in what you do, but there is a difference in presence. It has
to do with the word covenant. "The declaration of the covenant
transforms individuals into community." This journey is about
those who have lived in covenant, with the Word, and with colleagues
who also are in covenant with the Word. Now, we are experiencing
in a new way, our covenant with this earth in local communities.
I want to describe the journey to the center, first
as an individual then as community. A crisis comes into my life
that calls for a decision to be myself. I experience myself as
complete. Contained in me are all the resources I will ever need.
The world is my arena in which to work. The future is open to
unlimited alternatives. The past is no longer a burden but a treasure
house of learning and resources. I never again have tostrive
to be someone or to strive toward a goal that brings a onceandforall
fulfillment. I discover that fulfillment is at hand. The Word
alone sustains me. I see myself on a journey. Everything I touch
has deeper meaning. I find myself effective. Fulfillment is everywhere.
Everything I touch turns to gold. However, it doesn't last. I
experience the dark night; everything turns to dust; nothing brings
fulfillment. I am on the wrong journey. The fulfilled life is
an unending burden. I can't stand it. Every demand to awaken and
engage comes as a ten ton crane. I see the long march as an endless
journey of expenditure and consciousness. There is no relief.
I am finished and nothing works. I try the old ways. I get up
and I say, "I am iron, I can decide." and I fall back
asleep. The whole journey no longer makes any sense and it just
doesn't help to get up and say, "I resolve today that I am
going to be exciting, adventuresome and ready to throw myself
into life; it just doesn't work.
A moment of decision is upon me. I have come to the
center of being. I have seen what it is going to cost me. I have
been on the journey for a long time and I hear the brothers doomed
to die. Now, I have always had trouble with that phrase, "hearing
the brothers doomed to die", because that never moved me.
I hear people suffering and that does nothing for me. It never
came to me that way: to run out there and help those peoplemy
brothers doomed to die. I finally decided I was trying to be pious.
It did not come to me that I was one who had to throw myself into
all these suffering masses. Seeing someone poor is not what hooked
me or convinced me to continue the journey.
I look at my options in this journey and I see that
I could live another life. I didn't believe that before this year.
I told myself the story that if I left this journey, went out
and got a job and lived a bourgeois life I would commit suicide
the first year. After all I would be bored to death. I don't believe
that any more. I believe that I could leave this Journey and have
a happy life somewhere else by forgetting I was on the journey.
Now that took away my last excuse. If the reason I am staying
on this journey is because I couldn't make it elsewhere, that's
gone. I can make it elsewhere. I have to have some other motivation
for being here than that.
One example used this summer illustrated this motivation.
There is this mad doctor who is out to get people he can experiment
on. He finds nobodies that will not be missed and he entices them
into his castle. He feeds them full of the goods of profound living.
He makes them work very hard doing Town Meetings, doing projects,
creating movements and they taste the good life. They are so busy
they never have a chance to look into the mirror to see what was
happening. One day they look into the mirror and discover that
the mad doctor has been experimenting on them and they have been
altered beyond recognition. I really like that image. I know that
I have been hooked. I have tasted the fulfilled life; I have seen
people who were dead come alive. That is what puts me back onto
that journey.
I went to the consult in Azpitia and experienced
this. When you are in a consult and the consensus is made, it
is glorious. When you come back to a meeting where everybody is
arguing and there is no consensus you say, "I don't want
to ever be in a meeting again where consensus isn't as glorious
as it was in a consult." I never want to go to an awakenment
event where it is not as glorious as the last one. I never want
to go to a project where I don't see people come alive. That is
what hooked me. I was given the privilege a year ago of teaching
a special literacy course in one of our projects. I trained the
local people in a whole week of literacy classes to get the program
started. It was a privilege. The very first night we did the first
twohour literacy session. We did the first evaluations with
the 30 students asking, "What did you learn?" One lady
who had been speaking English her whole life stood up and said,
"What I learned today was," and she pointed to it on
the board, "I didn't know that when you say I you mean one
person. When you say 'we', you mean more than one person."
This is not a lady who is stupid. This was a lady who had never
had the language to talk about herself as a self and a community
as a community. This meant she never had a way of talking about
the greatness of being alive or the greatness of being in a community.
This didn't happen in Africa and this didn't happen in some poor
place in India. This happened in my own beloved country, in Mississippi
in Delta Pace. I went away from there saying that I didn't want
to do anything else with my life but give people the tools to
know that they are a self. I never want to do anything else. And
it struck me, that is how you get hooked. You taste the good life,
you get altered and you decide that you are going to continue
this journey. You decide to return, but you are marked, you see
the finality of this journey in a new way.
In this finality, I experience that the prime of
my life is gone. I have been used up and I can see where this
journey is going to take me. It is going to use up the rest of
my life. I experience myself as getting old. Gene Boivin and I
were on the same team one year and when we had to wake up a man
who stayed in bed every day because he didn't feel good, Boivin
told him, "Now you know when you get to our age, you probably
feel as good today as you are ever going to feel for the rest
of your life." It struck me that that is right. Every day
I was feeling a little bit worse. Somehow I experienced myself
as having a used up body. I finally got clear. My health is not
going to get better. I am not going to have more time to myself.
I am not going to reach a point where my skill always wins. I
no longer experience the price I am paying as one great big lump
called the dark night blues. I experience the price every single
day, that I have been used up, and I am going to continue to be
used up. My life is not seen in terms of successes and failures.
I seeing fruits to my actions. Everything I have ever done has
turned out and is still turning out differently than I intended.
Yet, I have been altered by the experience of being
on this journey. Do I decide to continue the journey and return
to this world of service being altered, or forget that I have
ever been on the Way. If I choose to continue on the Way, I have
chosen to return to this world as a marked human being, as one
claimed by the Way.
I want to take the community through the same journey.
The declaration that is the decision, resolve and surrender (which
you see on the chart), the community goes through in the same
journey of selfhood. There is an event. For a project, the event
is usually a consult or a Town Meeting in which the community
acquires selfhood as they make a corporate decision to stand.
They decide to be on the journey. This decision in Azpitia shocked
me. You know the speech we always give about the ICA not having
any money? We aren't going to pay for this, but we are going to
help you. We are going to go on development calls with you. We
will go with you to enable you to get funds, but we don't have
any money. The next day the community comes up and says, where
is the money? It happens again and again. Azpitia heard the speech.
I don't know why. They had a brandy sale made from their own grapes.
It is really fine. The next day the villagers came to the auxiliary
house so they could have the first donation to the project be
from the people of Azpitia .
Communities make a decision to be on this journey.
They make a resolve. Sometimes it is the resolve to send residents
to other projects. Then comes a point at which they have to give
up everything they thought it meant to be a community. It usually
comes when they have to risk their community's reputation. They
have to sign up to be the board of directors or sign up to be
Town Meeting orchestrators or get a loan at the bank. Mary D'Sousa's
illustration about when the women in the village had the sewing
industry all ready to go and all they needed to do was have the
people go down and sign up. One woman came up and said, "I
don't trust you." How many of you have led the community
up to the point where they had to sign the paper and everyone
quit? They weren't finally going to give up their reputation,
they weren't going to take that journey. But some do. Then the
community goes to the center of consciousness and experiences
the dark night and the long march. How many times have you heard
this year: "Our community has not done anything, our project
has not done anything, our state didn't do anything"? "If
you made a list of all the projects and how great they werewe
would be at the bottom or maybe next to the bottom; we did not
do anything." They go through the humiliation of having no
hope of a victory, of never doing anything. This community also
has been hooked. They have started Town Meeting everywhere, they
have seen profound transformation, they have gone to another consult,
the HDTS, they have seen the global film and they are hooked.
They never want to be any less than a transformed community. The
know the cost. They have been humiliatedburned out.
Can you imagine Lorne de L'Acadie when everything was burned outabsolutely
wiped out. This community had to stand in as much humiliation,
as much of the dark night and long march, as we have ever had
to stand up and say, "Are we going to close the project or
are we going to continue?" Lorne de L'Acadie decided to continue.
Furthermore, it was the enemy in Lorne de L'Acadie decided to
continue.
The other day I saw a picture of the great people
who are in Kawangware now. I do not know a single one of them.
Everybody that was there when we started the project is gone.
The original core has dropped out. The residents have mud slung
at them in these communities. Families are not talking to each
other. People have lost their jobs. The have been ridiculed by
newspapers. They are clear on what it is going to cost them to
continue the journey. The finality of this Way is that it is the
point at the center where you have to decide. You know what it
is going to cost you and you realize that you have been humiliated
and lost everything. Are you going to continue because you have
been hooked? I think we get our marks in the center. The Aboriginals,
cut in the skin, put dirt in it so it raises it up and you see
the marks of passage. I think we get four marks when we decide
to return to this Way.
The first mark we get is that nothing works for you
personally anymore. No symbols, no taking care of yourself. Nothing
works. Humiliation does not describe the experience anymore. I
used to say, if that prior can't get stake meetings started, just
send me there for two weeks. I'll get stake meetings started.
I don't believe that any more. I used to believe if you just sent
me with five strong disciplined Order members who have been around
a long time, we could transform anything. Just give me a group
with corporate discipline. I don't believe that anymore either.
The images we have heard this year are failure. Something has
happened. We can not get our corporate group working anymore.
It is easier to work with the undisciplined community than it
is to work with our own colleagues. It has been very painful...the
most painful has been hearing people say, if only we would use
our methods, why can't we use our methods any more. You even hear
the LENS team saying we could really do something if we just used
our own methods. You sit there and wonder what has happened.
The second mark that gets on you isnothing
works for you personally yet everything seems to work for somebody
else. We heard one of our colleagues talk about her model for
the children in the village. Her model is destroyed but the community
creates its own model. On the chart is what we used to call the
revolutionary method of changing history model. A care group of
people who are intentional, comprehensive, futuric and archaic
created the model that would change history. They would go back
into history and history would go this way. At some point, you
discover that you create a core of disciplined people, you create
a model, you put it in history and history goes 5 billion waysnot
necessarily any of the ways that you wanted it to go. History
does not go in a singular point any moreI guess it
never did.
In operations, we have said don't answer the phone
because when people in a project call up, you are bound to ask,
"How was the literacy program we started three months ago?"
"Oh, that all collapsed after you left." "How are
the health caretakers doing? " "The what?" You
sit there and realize that being a catalyser does not necessarily
mean that what is catalyzed is what you intended to catalyze.
This is where status gets burned out. The failure we experienced
this year was that we failed but the community won. Every story
we heard, the community won. Everybody in this room, I think,
personally failed. You hear someone say, "I don't think that
I can take it another year because everything I did was off target
and nobody paid any attention." But those same people did
the best Town Meetings that were ever created. I think we have
finally understood what it means to be nobodies. We catalyze,
but not what we intend to catalyze, but it does not make any difference
because the community has won.
The third mark is you discover that you really have
given up everything. You have really cut yourself off from all
things in order to give your whole life. You do not possess your
own habits, thoughts deeds anymore. We talk about how different
we are from other people. We stay in the office of Economic Security
in Arizona which is the welfare office to do the Pisinemo document.
The director of the office was fascinated by us because it was
obvious that we were bound together in ways he never knew. He
said things like, "Do you notice that when any of you get
up to go to the bathroom, or go in the next room, you always turn
around and announce where you are going?" The thing that
really got him though was when he had to leave the keys and give
a letter of permission for us to stay there at night when the
building was closed. He said, "I have been very curious and
now I am going to find out. Who is in charge of this group so
I can give him the keys." I asked, "You need someone
name. Who is going to be responsible? "Okay, why don't we
say that Don is in charge." He said, "You can't do that."
I didn't understand what he was saying so I turned to my other
colleague and said, "Don't you think Don should be the one?
" She says, "Yes." He says, "You can't do
that. You can't just turn and say somebody ...I want to know who
is really responsible." For those who have been a long time
on the journey, there is something about being possessed by God.
We really have given up our own thoughts, habits and deeds.
The fourth mark is that the onetoone
is finally gone. Cause and effect no longer work. I have decided
that I know what moralism is. Dear Harold, you know he has sickle
cell anemia, he is over 50 years old, he has had three heart attacks
and there is no reason why he should still be alive yet every
year he keeps showing up. When he had had one of the heart attacks
and we thought he would never leave the hospital alive, he called
me on the phone and said, "I want you to come down and make
my funeral arrangements." That is not what I wanted to do.
So I took a colleague with me as I am a real coward. I decided
that I could not do this by myself. All the way down to the hospital,
I kept thinking, "This is absurd. I don't like his style.
We have these great conversations then the next time I see him,
he reminds me of what I said before which I am no longer doing."
He encounters me as the alien other every single time. We walked
into his hospital room and I saw him in the bed. It occurred to
me, Harold never gets to things on time. Isn't that irrelevant.
And he drinks; isn't that irrelevant? And he irritates me; how
irrelevant. We talked about his funeral. We chose the scripture
that he wanted, we chose the song that he wanted, we chose the
people who would be the liturgists and all I could think of was
all those things that I disliked. That is so irrelevant. His life
is not about one day walking in late and therefore he is bad.
That is just not what life is about. It is total life being given
in mission.
I think that my moralism died at that point. Before
that, every time somebody had come in late to a meeting I had
said, "He is bad, he is late, he is not disciplined, he is
not corporate, he is not intentional." Every time somebody
said something that was irritating or something that was not appropriate,
I would think, "He is bad." Every time somebody did
something that was really good, "Oh, that is really great.
He must be on the way." It struck me that I wanted to hang
on to the old universe in which one activity causes one result.
That is not true. I belong to the historical process and I am
a part of what goes on. I am not a separate entity. I see my relationship
to everything. In looking at the United States' twelve human development
projects, it became clear to me that we could not look at one
project as successful and some other project as unsuccessful.
Because that is my moralism speaking. Primal communities came
off this year, not one particular project. You know as well as
I do what is going to happen when a project hits the Dark Night:
everybody is going to quit, remember that. We know the communities
who went through the Dark Night this year, and everybody is ready
to quit. Do you know what is going to happen? They are going to
be the next sign and symbol. What does it mean to dare to say
that two million villages are going to be transformed? That will
not happen because of this village or that village, but because
the entire historical process has decided that history is going
to come off. That is the finality of the Way.
Finality has to do with being at a point of no return.
We either have to go forward in this journey or we will have to
forget that we were ever on this journey. We cannot afford to
forget any experience, any geography since everything together
is determining the course of history. Some people actually believe
that we invented RS1 and CS1. We took all those papers
from what someone else had written. I think Research this year
is going to need to read everything that has ever been written
and is being written and every single newspaper that comes out
in the world. We are those who are in history and working with
history. We are not a group that stands aside and hopes to determine
this or that, but we are working with the process of history.
The implication is that when we see the finality of this journey,
we discover that we always live on death ground.
The second implication is when we see the finality,
we have to name our priorities. Third, we know when we see the
finality of this journey we are about the business of transferring
power to our shadows, of delegating responsibility. We begin to
trust our colleagues because we see the finality of being in history.
Fourth, we organize our actions in such a way that death will
always find us awake. Joe used to use this image, "Don't
let death find you where you ought not to be." When we find
ourselves at the center, deciding to return to the life of service,
we are concerned about which actions need to stay in history.
I do not want death to find me asleep. I am more concerned than
ever that every act I do is not a single act, it is to initiate
something in history. Remember Jesus's last week? He initiated
the last supper. He cleaned out the temple and he was silent when
people accused him. He was initiating the acts needed in history.
That is the journey to the center.
I want to look at the return to the world using this
chart. Everything that is true going to the center is still true,
but we have added something to our understanding of the journey.
The journey to the center was primarily a time of decisionI
decided, I stand. The time of the return to the world is primarily
a time of covenant. As we went to the center the image was that
of the Iron Man who stands forever. The image as we return to
the world is how local man is winning. On the journey to the center,
we were concerned about every moment. There is no moment in which
we do not live in the hands of God. Returning to the world, we
have discovered also that there is no place in which we do not
act out the gift of God. The declaration to the center is the
declaration of selfhood. What happens on the return is not so
much declaration as locating the settlement, the battleground.
On the journey to the center we were concerned with our decision
to stand. Now we are concerned about how we walk, or how we be
the incarnation. The journey to the center was resolve to live
on behalf of. Now, we see the obligations of the covenant that
we have undertaken. In the journey to the center, we primarily
had to give up everything. On the return, we see we have to once
again embrace everything. The beatitudes point to this.
We were in a project this year in which some horrible
stories were told accusing the auxiliary of being drunks and stealing
money and doing bad things. The story did not happen to be true.
We wasted a lot of time deciding how to convince the community
that the story was not true until finally we realized it did not
make any difference if it was true or not. What we had to do was
deal with the myth that the community was living out of, not whether
or not it was a true story of theft or drunkenness. My team member
stood up with this declaration, "Do you know the most important
thing an auxiliary in a human development project needs to be
doing?" I know the first thing an auxiliary needs to be doing:
they need to be doing stakes and guilds, having community meetings,
getting the consensus, I had my list and was waiting to fight
his. "The first thing the auxiliary needs to do when they
get into a community is to make friends." Oh, that struck
me. We have spent all of our time going to the center saying,
"I have no friends," and that is true. On the return
to the world, we befriend the poor. That is what we are doing
in communities, making friends with the poor. Going to the center,
we have no home; returning to the world, we are at home. Going
to the center, we are detached; returning to the world, we are
attached. Our covenants are cut off going to the center; returning,
our covenants are given back. We are concerned with resolve going
to the center; returning we are concerned with the battlefield.
We had given up our lives going to the center; now we are given
back a community. We used to have a cold detached presence and
everybody who saw us knew that they couldn't touch us in a million
years; now we live in a goldfish bowl. We used to spend all day
preparing our homework; we are now more concerned with preparing
our songs and myths. We used to spend time creating contexts;
now in addition to that we spend time in providing an event. We
used to spend time writing procedures; as well as that we are
now spending time creating a team. We used to be involved in the
impact of our style; we are also involved in what is corporate
effectivity. We are no longer on this return path. We have taken
the journey to the center, and have already returned. We stand
in the Earthrise perspective now, looking at the whole journey
to the center and to the return. This is a one time journey that
we do again and again and again. We take the journey and the whole
community takes the journey.
If we are the guides on this journey, we are also
those who guard the journey, for it is easy to forget you are
on the journey. When we go to the center, we tend to forget it
is a journey we are on and we get trapped in the immediate situation,
we think the situation is standing still. On the return, we tend
to forget we are guides on the journey and we begin to identify
ourselves with the communitywe go native. Since we
know everything depends on the transformation of human community,
we tend to imagine consequences, this is also known as panic and
hysteria. Since we see the limitless scope of our options, we
get waylaid often and allow ourselves to look at one more model
before we make a decision. Since we see the cruciality of our
work, we tend toward oneupmanship, we cut into each
other's insights, topping it with our own examples. Since we are
always on death ground, we tend to postpone the death ground a
little bit. We are always on the verge of solutions. If we had
two more hours, we could get the solution, if we had two more
years, we could have the project done. These are all called the
seductions on the Way.
Now the mythology. We are going to need tools to
create the new myth in terms of fiction, legend, poetry and drama.
We need to find ways to tell the stories of the journey we are
on. By fiction, we create our own images like the mad doctor,
or the image we used this week, "God winking at you,"
in the triangle of the summer symbol. These are fictional devises,
images that allow us to know what it means to be on the Way. Using
legends we tell stories of the complete life like the whole life
of Gandhi, his entire impact. Those who leave the Way loose the
significance of the work they did earlier. It does not make any
difference if you are ten years on the Way, it is your complete
life that creates the legend. There is a story about Thomas A.
Kempis, the theologian. He was never made a saint. When he died,
after an illness in which he was in a coma, he was buried and
then as tradition required, was transferred to a second grave.
During the transfer it was discovered that he had not been dead
when first buried. He probably came out of the coma, because there
were scratchings on the lid of the coffin. This man probably suffocated
there, you don't know if he had a few seconds or a few minutes.
Because of this, the church has never made him a saint; they could
not be sure if he succumbed to apostasy in those last three minutes.
When I think of suffocating in a coffin in the last three minutes
of dying, I wonder if I would say, "It wasn't worth it, it
wasn't worth it, let me out, it wasn't worth it." That story
has an impact because it is your total life you are talking about,
down to the very last minute, your total life is an address. We
need legends.
We had many illustrations of poetry this summer.
We heard poetry in a lecture. The poet told how she came alive
and saw her transparency. She told the story of what had happened
to her because she had seen what happened to the community. This
is a poem. Then finally, the drama. We heard one lecture this
summer which never said anything about the individual. She only
told stories about the community, the drama which tells the story
of what happened elsewhere. I think that those are four forms
that are going to be helpful.
The last category is methodology or implications.
What does it mean for us to be the corporate exemplars? I have
new criteria for the completion of a project now. It is not how
many programs have been done, what has been started. The question
is, has the community become the exemplars? The project is completed
when the community becomes the sage, the ones who can put things
in a destinal context; when the community becomes the poet, the
ones who can tell the story; when the community becomes the general,
the ones who can strategize and lead the programs; and when the
community becomes the saint, living on behalf of other dying communities.
An image of the corporate exemplars comes from H. Richard Niebuhr,
"You become the place of revelation." In Azpitia the
auxiliary was discussing who would be in the village itself and
who would be doing permeation and authorization. The assignments
when they were made for permeation did not take in to account
that the village needs to see the presence of those who have decided
that nothing is impossible. Even if the auxiliary didn't do anything
but sit in the collegium room so that every time there was a crisis
and somebody asked, "How do I deal with this?" they
could very calmly give a context. There has got to be a presence
in that community. That is the function of an auxiliary. There
you become the place of revelation. I was impacted by Ivy City's
ability to see their auxiliary as a primal community. On that
auxiliary, are just normal everyday human beings, some get drunk
and some get into fights. The community looks at how that auxiliary
sees itself as a primal community, how they deal with children,
how they deal with drunks, how they deal with the people who are
great, how they celebrate, how they take over from failure. What
it means for us to be the guide is to dare to be the experiment
in primal community.
That was an unbelievable story about Rich and the
baseball game. He couldn't play baseball because his father was
watching. Then his father hid behind the trees and Rich played
the game not knowing his father was there. After he hit a home
run and the game was over, his father came out and shook his hand.
Isn't that a great image for being the guide? We are the magicians
who disappear while the community comes off in history and then
we slip out from behind the bushes and shake their hand.
The glory that we experience now is a little different
than our experience on the journey to the center. It is outside
ourselves. We see other people awake and we become awake. We see
effectivity and we become creative. It is not ourselves being
effective, or wise or transformed, it is profound community coming
alive. We experience ourselves as part of that happening, not
as separate from it. We experience ourselves as part of the total
working with history.
I received some letters from a colleague in Latin
America this past year. Her letters are really great. The first
paragraph is what I call her suicide note: "This is terrible,
nobody pays any attention to me, we don't do collegiums any more,
everything is falling apart, we might as well quit, everything
I have tried to do is absolutely irrelevant." Then the next
four and a half single spaced typewritten pages with notes on
the side is about what has happened to the community. You ought
to see the project, people are working, we have built a bakery,
the whole cadre is alive, the stake meetings are starting, and
on and on and on. Four and a half pages and then an ending note,
"I really don't know what I am going to do but I see somebody
needs a tractor part, I have to go, so goodbye for now."
That is the end of her letter. She had written a Psalm. "The
whole world is against me, Oh Lord, come to my defense."
Then the whole middle section was, "What great things God
has done for us." And then the finale, "And now I know,
and I am going to return to the world. I am going to go back into
the fray." Wouldn't it be great as guides along the way this
year to write letters like a Psalm. Oh Lord, I have been humiliated
and burned up, but let me tell you what has happened to this community,
and now it is time for me to get back in there as a burned out
nobody.
I had a humiliation this year, I made the mistake
of bragging in Azpitia that I had given a great development spin
and gotten a lot of money. So they asked me to do the development
pitch for the consultants. I gave a great, emotional, sentimental,
wonderful, stirring development pitch, and nobody, of course,
gave any money. One part of the pitch said, "empty your pockets."
When I leave a project, I do that. I leave all the money I have
because I live on a stipend that is larger than anybody's in the
project. So in the pitch it said, "As symbol of care for
communities everywhere, empty out your pockets." In Azpitia,
Thelma, the Papago woman from Pisinemo, and Mervis Edwards, the
lady from Jamaica both gave a donation. They emptied out their
pockets. Here were the poorest people, not the rich old ladies,
or some of the rich consultants, but two of the poorest people
in that whole room.
We didn't win on the development pitch but profound
humanness won.
What if in evaluation, we asked ourselves not what
did we accomplish this year but where did profound humanness unfold
this year? Not, what did I or the government do but where did
you see profound humanness unfold. Then finally we ask the question
of those people who are on the Way, where did you see history
win this year? For we are the people of God who have been hooked
by seeing profound community. The only question that we have ever
had is not, "What did I do that helped?" but "How
did God win this year? How did history win?"