Many people seek fellowship because they are afraid
to be alone. Because they cannot stand loneliness, they are driven
to seek the company of other people. There are Christians, too,
who cannot endure being alone, who have had some bad experiences
with themselves, who hope they will gain some help in association
with others. They are generally disappointed. Then they blame
the fellowship for what is really their own fault. The Christian
community is not a spiritual sanitarium. The person who comes
into a fellowship because he is running away from himself is misusing
it for the sake of diversion, no matter how spiritual this diversion
may appear. He is really not seeking community at all, but only
distraction which will allow him to forget his loneliness for
a brief time, the very alienation that creates the deadly isolation
of man. The disintegration of communication and all, genuine experience,
and finally resignation and spiritual death are the result of
such attempts to find a cure.
Solzt7~de and Silence
Let him who cannot be alone beware of community.
He will only do harm to himself and to the community. Alone you
stood before God when he called you; alone you had to answer that
call; alone you had to struggle and pray; and alone you will die
and give an account to God. You cannot escape from yourself; for
God has singled you out. If you refuse to be alone you are rejecting
Christ's call to you, and you can have no part in the community
of those who are called. "The challenge of death comes to
us all, and no one can die for another. Everyone must fight his
own battle with death by himself, alone.... I will not be with
you then, nor you with me" (Luther).
But the reverse is also true: Let him who is not
in community beware of being alone. Into the community you were
called, the call was not meant for you alone; in the community
of the called you bear your cross, you struggle, you pray. You
are not alone, even in death, and on the Last Day you will be
only one member of the great congregation of Jesus Christ. If
you scorn the fellowship of the brethren, you reject the call
of Jesus Christ, and thus your solitude can only be hurtful to
you. "If I die, then I am not alone in death; if I suffer
they [the fellowship] suffer with me" (Luther).
We recognize, then, that only as we are within the
fellowship can we be alone, and only he that is alone can live
in the fellowship. Only in the fellowship do we learn to be rightly
alone and only in aloneness do we learn to live rightly in the
fellowship. It is not as though the one preceded the other; both
begin at the same time, namely, with the call of Jesus Christ.
Each by itself has profound pitfalls and perils.
One who wants fellowship without solitude plunges into the void
of words and feelings, and one who seeks solitude without fellowship
perishes in the abyss of vanity, selfinfatuation, and despair.
Let him who cannot be alone beware of community. Let him who is
not in community beware of being alone. Along with the day of
the Christian family fellowship together there goes the lonely
day of the individual. This is as it should be. The day together
will be unfruitful without the day alone, both for the fellowship
and for the individual.
The mark of solitude is silence, as speech is the
mark of community. Silence and speech have the same inner correspondence
and difference as do solitude and community. One does not exist
without the other. Right speech comes out of silence, and
right silence comes out of speech.
Silence does not mean dumbness, as speech does not
mean chatter. Dumbness does not create solitude and chatter does
not create fellowship. "Silence is the excess, the inebriation,
the victim of speech. But dumbness is unholy, like a thing only
maimed, not cleanly sacrificed.... Zacharias was speechless, instead
of being silent. Had he accepted the revelation, he may perhaps
have come out of the temple not dumb but silent" (Ernest
Hello). The speech, the Word ' which establishes and binds together
the fellowship, is accompanied by silence. "There is a time
to keep silence, and a time to speak" (Eccles. 3:7).
As there are definite hours in the Christian's day
for the Word, particularly the time of common worship and prayer,
so the day also needs definite times of silence, silence under
the Word and silence that comes out of the Word. These will be
especially the times before and after hearing the Word. The Word
comes not to the chatterer but to him who holds his tongue. The
stillness of the temple is the sign of the holy presence of God
in His Word.
There is an indifferent, or even negative, attitude
toward silence which sees in it a disparagement of God's revelation
in the Word. This is the view which misinterprets silence as a
ceremonial gesture, as a mystical desire to get beyond the Word.
This is to miss the essential relationship of silence to the Word.
Silence is the simple stillness of the individual under the Word
of God. We are silent before hearing the Word because our
thoughts are already directed to the Word, as a child is quiet
when he enters his father's room. We are silent after hearing
the Word because the Word is still speaking and dwelling within
us. We are silent at the beginning of the day because God should
have the first word, and we are silent before going to sleep because
the last word also belongs to God. We keep silence solely for
the sake of the Word, and therefore not in order to show disregard
for the Word but rather to honor and receive it.
Silence is nothing else but waiting for God's Word
and coming from God's Word with a blessing. But everybody knows
that this is something that needs to be practiced and learned,
in these days when talkativeness prevails. Real silence, real
stillness, really holding one's tongue comes only as the sober
consequence of spiritual stillness.
But this stillness before the Word will exert its
influence upon the whole day. If we have learned to be silent
before the Word, we shall also learn to manage our silence and
our speech during the day. There is such a thing as forbidden,
selfindulgent silence, a proud, offensive silence. And this
means that it can never be merely silence as such. The silence
of the Christian is listening silence, humble stillness, that
may be interrupted at any time for the sake of humility. It is
silence in conjunction with the Word. This is what Thomas a Kempis
meant when he said: "None speaketh surely but he that would
gladly keep silence if he might." There is a wonderful power
of clarification, purification, and concentration upon the essential
thing in being quiet. This is true as a purely secular fact. But
silence before the Word leads to right hearing and thus also to
right speaking of the Word of God at the right time. Much that
is unnecessary remains unsaid. But the essential and the helpful
thing can be said in a few words.
Where a family lives close together in a constricted
space and the individual does not have the quietness he needs,
regular times of quiet arc absolutely necessary. After a time
of quiet we meet others in a different and a fresh way. Many a
household fellowship will be able to provide for the individual's
need to be alone, and thus preserve the fellowship itself from
injury, only l)y adopting a regular order.
We shall not discuss here all the wonderful benefits
that can accrue to the Christian in solitude and silence. It is
all too easy to go astray at this point. We could probably cite
many a bad experience that has come from silence. Silence can
be a dreadful ordeal with all its desolation and terrors. It can
also be a false paradise of selfdeception; the latter is
no better than the former. Be that as it may, let none expect
from silence anything but a direct encounter with the Word of
God, for the sake of which he has entered into silence. But this
encounter will be given to him. The Christian will not lay down
any conditions as to what he expects or hopes to get from this
encounter. If he will simply accept it, his silence will be richly
rewarded.
There are three purposes for which the Christian
needs a definite time when he can be alone during the day: Scripture
meditation, prayer, and intercession all three should have their
place in the daily period of meditation. The word "meditation"
should not frighten us. It is an ancient concept of the Church
and of the Reformation that we are beginning again to rediscover.
Meditation
It might be asked, Why is a special time needed for
this, since we meditate already during the common devotions?
This is the answer. The period of personal meditation
is to be devoted to the Scriptures, private prayer, and intercession,
and it has no other purpose. There is no occasion here for spiritual
experiments. But for these three things there must be time, for
God Himself requires them of us. Even if initially meditation
means nothing but this one thing, that we are performing a service
that we o~ve to God, it would still be sufficient.
The time of meditation does not let US
down into the: void and abyss of loneliness;
it lets us be alone with the Word. And in so doing it gives us
solid ground on which to stand and clear directions as to the
steps we must take.
Whereas in our devotions together we read long consecutive
passages, in our personal meditation we confine ourselves to a
brief selected text, which possibly may not be changed for a whole
week. If in our reading of the Scriptures together we are led
into the whole length and breadth of the Bible, here we go into
the unfathomable depths of a particular sentence and word. Both
are equally necessary, "that ye may be able to comprehend
with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and
height" (Eph. 3:.8).
In our meditation we ponder the chosen text on the
strength of the promise that it has something utterly personal
to say to us for this day and for our Christian life, thatit
is not only God's Word for the Church, but also God's Word for
us individually. We expose ourselves to the specific word until
it addresses us personally. And when we do this, we are doing
no more than the simplest, untutored Christian does every day;
we read God's Word as God's Word for us.
We do not ask what this text has to say to other
people. For the preacher this means that he will not ask how he
is going to preach or teach on this text, but what it is saying,
quite directly to him. It is true that to do this we must first
have un~d the content of the verse, but here we are not expounding
it or preparing a sermon or conducting Bible study of any kind;
we are rather waiting for God's Word to us. It is not a vacuous
waiting, but a waiting on the basis of a clear promise. Often
we are so burdened and overwhelmed with other thoughts, images,
and concerns that it may take a long time before God's Word has
swept all else aside and come through. But it will surely come,
just as surely as God Himself has come to men and will come again.
This is the very reason why we begin our meditation with the prayer
that God may send His Holy Spirit to us through His Word and reveal
His Word to us and enlighten us.
It is not necessary that we should get through the entire passage in one meditation. Often we shall have to stop with one sentence or even one word, because we have been gripped and arrested and cannot evade it any longer. Is not the word "Father," or "love," "mercy," "cross," "sanctification," "resurrection," often enough to fill far more than the brief period we have at our disposal?
It is not necessary, therefore, that we should be
concerned in our meditation to express our thought and prayer
in words. Unphrased thought and prayer, which issues only from
our hearing, may often be more beneficial.
It is not necessary that we should discover new ideas
in our meditation. Often this only diverts us and feeds our vanity.
It is sufficient if the Word, as we read and understand it, penetrates
and dwells within us. As i..lary "pondered in her heart"
the things that were told by the shepherds, as what we have casually
overheard follows us for a long time, sticks in our mind, occupies,
disturbs, or delights us, without our ability to do anything about
it, so in meditation God's Word seeks to enter in and remain with
us. It strives to stir us, to work and operate in us, so that
we shall not get away from it the whole day long. Then it will
do its work in us, often without our being conscious of it.
Above all, it is not necessary that we should have
any unexpected, extraordinary experiences in meditation.
This can happen, but if it does not, it is not a sign that the
meditation period has been useless. Not only at the beginning,
but repeatedly, there will be times when we feel a great spiritual
dryness and apathy, an aversion, even an inability to meditate.
We dare not be balked by such experiences. Above all, we must
not allow them to keep us from adhering to our meditation period
with great patience and fidelity.
It is, therefore, not good for us to take too seriously
the to many untoward experiences we have with ourselves in meditation.
It is here that our old vanity and our illicit claims upon God
may creep in by a pious detour, as if it were our right to have
nothing but elevating and fruitful experiences, and as if the
discovery of our own inner poverty were quite below our dignity.
With that attitude we shall make no progress. Impatience and selfreproach
will only foster our complacency and entangle us ever more deeply
in the net of selfcentered introspection. But there is no
more time for such morbidity in meditation than there is in the
Christian life as a whole. We must center our attention on the
Word alone and leave consequences to its action. For may it not
be that God Himself sends us these hours of reproof and dly ness
that we may be brought again to expect everything from His Word?
"Seek God, not happiness"- this is the fundamental rule
of all meditation. If you seek God alone, you will gain happiness:
that is its promise.
Prayer
The Scripture meditation leads to prayer. We have
already said that the most promising method of prayer is to allow
oneself to be guided by the word of the Scriptures, to pray on
the basis of a word of Scripture. In this way we shall not become
the victims of our own emptiness. Prayer means nothing else but
the readiness and willingness to receive and appropriate the Word,
and, what is more, to accept it in one's personal situation, particular
tasks, designs, sins, and temptations. What can never enter the
corporate prayer of the fellowship may here be silently made known
to God. According to a word of Scripture we pray for the clarification
of our day, for preservation from sin, for growth in sanctification,
for faithfulness and strength in our work. And we may be certain
that our prayer will be heard, because it is a response to God's
Word and promise. Because God's Word has found its fulfillment
in Jesus Christ, all prayers that we pray conforming to this Word
are certainly heard and answered in Jesus Christ.
It is one of the particular difficulties of meditation
that our thoughts are likely to wander and go their own way, toward
other persons or to some events in our life. Much as this may
distress and shame us again and again, we must not lose heart
and become anxious, or even conclude that meditation is really
not something for us. When this happens it is often a help not
to snatch back our thoughts convulsively, but quite calmly to
incorporate into our prayer the people and the events to which
our thoughts keep straying and thus in all patience return to
the starting point of the meditation.
Intercession
Just as we relate our personal prayer to the Scripture
passage so we do the same with our intercessions. It is impossible
to mention in the intercessions of corporate worship all the persons
who are committed to our care, or at any rate to do so in the
way that is required of us. Every Christian has his own circle
who have requested him to make intercession for them or for whom
he knows he has been called upon especially to pray. These will
be, first of all, those with whom he must live day by day.
This brings us to a point at which we hear the pulsing
heart of all Christian life in unison. A Christian fellowship
lives and exists by the intercession of its members for one another,
or it collapses. I can no longer condemn or hate a brother for
whom I pray, no matter how much trouble he causes me. His face,
that hitherto may have been strange and intolerable to me, is
transformed in intercession into the countenance of a brother
for whom Christ died, the face of a forgiven sinner. This is a
happy discovery for the Christian who begins to pray for others.
There is no dislike, no personal tension, no estrangement that
cannot be overcome by intercession as far as our side of it is
concerned. Intercessory prayer is the purifying bath into which
the individual and the fellowship must enter every day. The struggle
we undergo with our brother in intercession may be a hard one,
but that struggle has the promise that it will gain its goal.
How does this happen? Intercession means no more than to bring our brother into the presence of God, to see him under the Cross of Jesus as a poor human being and sinner in need of grace. Then everything in him that repels us falls away; we see him in all his destitution and need. His need and his sin become so heavy and oppressive that we feel them as our own, and we can do nothing else but pray: Lord, do Thou, Thou alone, deal with him according to Thy severity and Thy goodness. To make intercession means to grant our brother the same right that we have received, namely, to stand before Christ and share in his mercy.
This makes it clear that intercession is also a daily
service we owe to God and our brother. He who denies his neighbor
the service of praying for him denies him the service of a Christian.
It is clear, furthermore, that intercession is not general and
vague but very concrete: a matter of definite persons and definite
difficulties and therefore of definite petitions. The more definite
my intercession becomes, the more promising it is.
Finally, we can also no longer escape the realization
that the ministry of intercession requires time of every Christian,
but most of all of the pastor who has the responsibility of a
whole congregation. Intercession alone, if it is thoroughly done,
would consume the entire time of daily meditation. So pursued,
it will become evident that intercession is a gift of God's grace
for every Christian community and for every Christian. Because
intercession is such an incalculably great gift of God, we should
accept it joyfully. The very time we give to intercession will
turn out to be a daily source of new joy in God and in the Christian
community.
Since meditation on the Scriptures, prayer, and intercession
are a service we owe and because the grace of God is found in
this service, we should train ourselves to set apart a regular
hour for it, as we do for every other service we perform. This
is not "legalism"; it is orderliness and fidelity. For
most people the early morning will prove to be the best time.
We have a right to this time, even prior to the claims of other
people, and we may insist upon having it as a completely undisturbed
quiet time despite all external difficulties. For the pastor it
is an indispensable duty and his whole ministry will depend on
it. Who can really be faithful in great things if he has not learned
to be faithful in the things of daily life.
The Test of Meditation
Every day brings to the Christian many hours in which
he will be alone in an unchristian environment. These are the
times of testing. This
is the test of true meditation and true Christian community. Has
the fellowship served to make the individual free, strong, and
mature, or has it made him weak and dependent. Has it taken him
by the hand for a while in order that he may learn again to walk
by himself, or has it made him uneasy and unsure? This is one
of the most searching and critical questions that can be put to
any Christian fellowship.
Furthermore, this is the place where we find out
whether the Christian's meditation has led him into the unreal,
from which he awakens in terror when he returns to the workaday
world, or whether it has led him into a real contact with God,
from which he emerges strengthened and purified. Has it transported
him for a moment into a spiritual ecstasy that vanishes when everyday
life returns, or has it lodged the Word of God so securely and
deeply in his heart that it holds and fortifies him, impelling
him to active love, to obedience, to good works? Only the day
can decide.
Is the invisible presence of the Christian fellowship
a reality and a help to the individual? Do the intercessions of
others carry him through the day? Is the Word of God close to
him as a comfort and a strength? Or does he misuse his aloneness
contrary to the fellowship, the Word, and the prayer? The individual
must realize that his hours of aloneness react upon the community.
In his solitude he can sunder and besmirch the fellowship, or
he can strengthen and hallow it. Every act of selfcontrol
of the Christian is also a service to the fellowship.
On the other hand, there is no sin in thought, word,
or deed, no matter how personal or secret, that does not inflict
injury upon the whole fellowship. An element of sickness gets
into the body; perhaps nobody knows where it comes from or in
what member it has lodged, but the body is infected. This is the
proper metaphor for the Christian community. We are members of
a body, not only when we choose to be, but in our whole existence.
Every member serves the whole body, either to its health or to
its destruction. This is no mere theory; it is a spiritual reality.
And the Christian community has often experienced its effects
with disturbing clarity, sometimes destructively and sometimes
fortunately.
One who returns to the Christian family fellowship
after fighting the battle of the day brings with him the blessing
of his aloneness, but he himself receives anew the blessing of
the fellowship. Blessed is he who is alone in the strength of
the fellowship and blessed is he who keeps the fellowship in the
strength of aloneness. But the strength of aloneness and the strength
of the fellowship is solely the strength of the Word of God, which
is addressed to the individual in the fellowship.