CORPORATENESS
That letter that young Gautama
wrote me about the spiritual dimension of life we typed up to hand out.
Maybe it's a little too personal to hand out, but anyway, it's typed up.
In that letter he uses the rubric, the category, of 'Eternal Return,' in
the sense of humanness, not as a metaphysical term. I must confess that
my theological edge, my existential edge, is located precisely there. Fanatic
that I am, the only redeeming grace relative to fanaticism that I can appeal
to, as far as I experience myself, is that my fanaticism keep changing.
My present intellectual fanaticism, however, is unmistakably at the point
of what that life is, after it has beheld what I mean to point to by the
center -- I think I got the from Teresa - after, so to speak, one has become
conscious that all his life he has been at the center, what that life of
the dead man is, for only dead men selfconsciously behold the center.
I'd like to give the talk I gave recently all over again. I think I could
really give a talk now, for that life is nothing less, nothing more, than
absolute perpetual service of mankind.
The reaching out of the world,
as I sensed after it on my trip, toward a new spirituality I tell
you, my words these day seem poverty stricken; I wish I had other words
in my opinion, is the reaching, out for understanding, in that light,
of the return to man. One does not reach out for a grasp of new spirituality
unless he's been to the center. What I'm trying to say is that our age
has been to the center. Of course all men have been to the center. But
at certain moments in history the consciousness of the fact that you've
been to the center screams out. The trouble is that that consciousness
has not really broken through; so in order to appropriate the spirituality
means that you bring something like utter selfconsciousness to the
journey to the center. Then your selfconscious struggle, I believe,
is to delineate for yourself and to fashion for the sake of all mankind
a manifestation of the life that has self-consciously been to the center.
I'd like to go back to talk afresh about the youth revolution, about the
black revolution, about the feminine revolution, about the non-western
world revolution in these kinds of categories.
Coupled with that kind of
happening to myself while I was away was very akin to it if not the same
thing, that had to do with my colleagues and your colleagues that are overseas.
I did not realize that my journey for the first time in the experience
of our order was really an inspection journey. Golly, I hate that word.
I hate anybody inspecting anybody else. I don't mind someone, you know,
screaming most of the time or talking behind people's back, as long as
he does not acknowledge that as a virtue. But I cannot stand headon
inspection. Therefore, it's taken me days even to acknowledge that that
was an inspection tour. I recovered from that kind of moralism when I realized
that I was not inspecting our colleagues overseas. I was inspecting us.
Certain things that I saw there I would deem wrong, but in the midst of
fantastic accomplishment.
Twice as many people were
in the ITIs there this summer as last year. Slicker sent us a cablegram
yesterday saying that therewere 74 in the Ootacamond ITI. There were
128 in Hong Kong. Last year there were 103 in Singapore. Being the kind
of exaggerators that we are -- we had 103 but before we were through we
lost about 10 of those. I suspect Slicker lost a few of those and I'm sure
McCleskey lost a few. But if we take the brightest side of it, we had over
twice as many this year as last year; and if we take the darkest side after
those who left last year, we still have over twice as many this year as
we had last. Even more of a miracle is that overseas our colleagues raised
$18,000. That is even more of a miracle. Also for the first time in our
history we had international teachers. Something like six who were at Singapore
were teaching this year, and next year! My gracious alive! It could be
simply astounding. And then even more maybe of a miracle, in most cases
but in India very clearly the sponsorship and recruitment were actually
done by and under the auspices of nationals from various countries. That
is just simply fantastic, to say nothing of the trips to break open the
Pacific Islands, to say nothing of what the Morrills and 0ylers did in
Japan. In the place where we had less opportunity to do anything, they
got 20 people from there. Or what the people in Southeast Asia were able
to do -- 19 people from Indonesia. That's unbelievable. The same number
came from the Philippines; to say nothing of what's happened in that extremely
difficult part of the world to work in called India; and what's happened
in Australia; and you could go on.
To get to my point as to
where I have criticism of us back here relative to what I saw on the trip,
I've already indicated the area that these were in. The first one that
I'd want to mention, although it's not the biggest problem, is the problem
of adaptability. If I didn't hate the word public relations so much I'd
call it public relations. I've tried to analyze what the problem was there
and it seems that It's something like this. If one learns a lot of gimmicks
-- and I tell you, we learn a lot of gimmicks -- and these are external
to your being, then all you've got to BE through are these external gimmicks.
If you're in one situation, wham! Another situation, wham! Another situation,
wham! All you've got is a bag of gimmicks. When you're able to internalize
these so that they are not what you be THROUGH, so to speak, but they are
your being, then you can adapt to any situation, play a million and one
roles and are able with a wink of the eye to move from playing this role
to playing another role. As long as the instruments are the methodologies
and the insights that you possess are something exterior to how you be
your being, you are trapped by those methodologies and those instruments.
You teach RSl one moment and the next moment are doing a public relations
job, and you are still, say for instance, teaching RS1. That's a problem
and was a crucial problem that I saw on the trip.
The second problem as I said
before to you had to do with model building. I saw some of our colleagues
who gave lectures or model building like nobody's business who were not
able in my opinion to build models, and particularly the kind of tactical
models that set the vision clear for them and told them day after day after
day after day exactly what they had to do relative to the total missional
thrust of our wholebody. Again, I interpret that as some way or another
our total body, including those of you who weren't here, for you picked
up our sins just as much as those of us who wallowedin the midst of
themthat some way or another that did not get through to the inner
grooves of their deepest being. That isn't put very well, but I'm sure
that it's getting at the heart of what the problem was. It was not simply
lack of a certain kind of finesse. To go back to another set of poetry
they had not turned their facility into prayer. They had not really grasped
that prayer is RADICAL TACTIC. In both of these cases I am trying to say
that from where I stood it seemed to be a spiritual inadequacy. I hope
that's right.
The third area of criticism had to do with corporateness. I said to you the other day that I don't remember ever having anybody in anything that was ever called my office, and sitting them down individually and reading them the Riot Act. I don't ever remember that. For me, that's talking behind someone's back. The way I read the Riot Act is two ways. One is to just eat someone out when they aren't present, in front of their colleagues, in such a fashion that you know very well that the word is going to get to them. I really climbed
on Townley the other day,
and he's an old hand. He was assigned a certain morning to come up with
the master training plan for the whole local congregation experiment. When
he was called on to produce what he had covenanted with all of his integrity
to do, he went to the board and put up one of the most exciting diagrams
you ever saw. It showed that if we moved the way we were going, in 1984
78,000 local congregations would be in the midst of embodying the tactical
system we worked out this summer; and it had every year in between. It
simply astounded me, but he didn't do his assignment. It takes a smart
man to do a thing like that. It was extremely useful, but he didn't do
his assignment. I mean, I came down on him hard, like with a sledge hammer.
It wasn't two hours later that Townley accosted me in the hall and repeated
word for word what I had said. That's one way I have of not talking behind
people's back.
The second way I have is
to do the same thing while they're present, but in the presence of the
gaze of their colleagues not my gaze, mine's not important. Then
whether they agree or disagree with me, they just better make the most
of it, and then do what they please with me.
The third problem overseas
is not understanding what corporateness is. I tell you, when you've been
brainwashed psychologically, like you and I have, that human relations
is some way or another personal in the sense that we have to learn how
to make people like us and make ourselves likable to other people rather
than to deal with one another as unrepeatable uniquenesses in history who
are not dependent on our approval, and when we grasp ourselves as spiritual
beings who are dependent only on God's approval, only on God's kindly disposition
toward us, then -- I want to repeat an old saw -- then something fantastic
happens between Shinn and myself. If there's anybody in this room who doesn't
know that Shinn is just an unbelievable isness, it's because you've
been trying to like Shinn. I want to say to you, that's ... (You ought
to laugh a little louder or I'm going to suspect that you're still hung
up on ancient psychologism.)
I say the third problem was
corporateness. It was not that these people didn't know what corporateness
was. Some of them have been giving lectures on corporateness I suppose
for six or seven years, and yet I smelled that they didn't have the foggiest
idea of what corporateness is in terms of embodiment. I suggested that
the other day. Yeah, and I was reading a PSU document that was trying to
define corporateness and it said it was everything except ... commonness
for mission. I can't stand vulgarity and when somebody says horseshit I
die and so I put question marks on the page -- that's my shorthand. Corporateness
for the sake of anything except getting a common job done, you can have.
I want nothing of it whatsoever.
Corporateness is never private?
I suppose the very term implies that. There is no such thing as self discipline
in the sense of private discipline. Discipline is always corporate and
the interesting thing about growing old in the midst of corporateness is
that if you dare to submit yourself to corporateness for the sake of prospective
investment of -- yourself in the historical process, then what happens
in time is that you become corporate inside, and if you don't submit to
the externality of corporateness you never become corporate inside, that
is to say, you never become disciplined inside. For internal discipline
is the internalization of corporateness. This is about all I really mean
by the whole rubric of sociality or meditation. And there comes a time,
in principle... not actually, in which a person doesn't need to be set
in the midst of external structures of corporateness because he is corporate
inside, period. I like to say of Slicker, why you could walk him barefooted
across the coals of hell and he would be still standing on the other side.
He is an internally disciplined man, I mean he is not in corporateness,
he is corporateness. And if you think he is not an individual, you damned
well have not met Slicker yet, and to me an extremely offensive individual.
But he is corporate inside. He no longer needs to have 26 people around
him to be sure he gets out of bed or to be sure that he gets the job that
he is assigned to DO done.
Then on the other side of
saying that, why, of course, nobody is ever outside of the need of theexternal
gaze of the neighbor. Go back and read Bonhoeffer on Community in this
area. One of the silly ironies of history is that precisely when you become
in your being a corporate human being, then it is that you care for mankind,
which is another way of saying the same thing, I don't mean that you are
mushy about mankind, but that all of you all of the time belongs to mankind.
There isn't a part of you that belongs to your family, not a part of you
that belongs to your wife, not a part of you that belongs to your children,
not a part of you that belongs to your mama and your papa, not a part of
you that belongs to your friends, but all of you all of the time belongs
to all mankind. That is what it means to be corporate. About the time that
happens inside yourself then you become an elder, even if you are only
20. And the rest of your life is spent being corporate internally in order
that the novices coming on can learn that corporateness is in the total
BE of their being.
I have tried to say that
the problem of corporateness is not an external problem (and no one can
teach you this); it is a problem of spirituality. I get awfully angry when
people talk about charisma in terms of leadership as if charisma was something
somebody was born with, and some have it and some not. For years I've been
saying that the source of charisma is the capacity to stand day after day
after day in the waterless desert. While this one falls over and that one
fades away in the strain, you just STAND day after day after day after
day. THAT is charisma. If some of you young ones think it would be fun
to have a dose of charisma, then it is very simple: you just stand day
after day after day with the shells falling all around you and this one,
he starts bitching and bitching and hitching, but you give up the luxury
of bitching and grind away at the task. It is just that simple. This is
interior discipline ... and interior discipline is corporateness. The reason
why most of you have lousy marriages is that you never learned to be corporate.
Most of you bring up every other day or so why you might do better in marriage
with another filly. The problem of corporateness overseas was a spiritual
problem.
That brings me to the fourth
problem overseas that I saw ... the spiritual, this time head on. You know
it's sort of fun to eat somebody out that you really like, like young Gautama.
It's simple for me to eat out Wiegel because he is sort of like Gautama
for me. If you watch their eyes you see the twinkle in the midst of the
hammer blows falling on them. And then the next day you get a letter from
the young Gautama in which underneath his utter lack of spirituality he
discloses himself as a deep spirit man. That doesn't alter things one iota.
That letter helped me to see that my yelling at them was not at them at
all. NOW I believe that the twinkle in Gautama's eye meant that he knew
that I was yelling at myself and the rest of you back here and not at him
at all. Now wouldn't that be irony.
Now what do we do about it?
I want to start at the crucial beginning and then touch on two or three
other things. For three years we have used ourselves as guinea pigs in
trying to recover on behalf of every local congregation in this world that
ever existed and ever will exist what the little church or ecclesiola would
fool like. Being an extremely impatient person I've been irritated by those
characters who went to ecclesiola and thought it was dull and not going
well. There are always the sort of abstract perfectionists who could never
if they lived to the end of history understand what an experiment was.
There are no experiments for them. There is some kind of realm of the eternal
in which everlasting patterns exist and they always want that perfect pattern
already existing. If it doesn't exist they never dream that they might
be stupid; they'd say that something else has a pipeline into the eternal
and they were just not stupid enough to use it to bring it in. The ecclesiolas
have been experiments. Nobody has known what they are and if you get bored
and think it's going wrong, then it's your job (and not bitching in some
reductionistic way but thinking in terms of 1000 years from now) to come
in with the next step.
Because of the kind of problem that I sense in the world and sense inside of us and certainly saw in terms of our mission in other countries, I would like to suggest that we spend this year and maybe next year and maybe the year after centering, not on such things as the seminary or the college or the sodality. First of all, those things do not exist. An ecclesiola or
a college is not something that takes up space at a given time composed of a coagulate of human beings. It is a dynamic. Think of the spiritual aspect of the dynamic that finally defines a local congregation; let your mind go back to earlier lectures. The dynamic in the seminary is that of selfhood. The dynamic within the sodality is that of fellowhood. The dynamic within the college is that of Godhood. That's not a metaphysical category. God-hood does not exist outside tile dynamic of selfhood and fellowhood, and so with fellowhood in relationship to the other two, and so with selfhood in relationship to the others. They are a dynamic. In each one of those cases you're dealing with turning matter into spirit, to use the category of Kazantzakis. What I mean by selfhood is the process of turning matter
into spirit. If you are not
turning matter into spirit, you haven't got what I mean by self hood. The
same is true of fellowhood, and the same is true of Godhood.
Therefore, I would like to
see us this next quarter and I suspect that it's going to take a
year go forward in the experiment by stripping the seminary and stripping
the sodality off the college and center on the college. I think that the
crucial problem at the moment is not in self awareness and it is not in
fellowhood but I want to take that back in just a minute. Fundamentally
it is in the lack of interior facility of bleeding every episode that we
participate in, bleeding it of its interior meaning that, to speak mythologically,
was placed there before the dawn of time itself. That is to say, lack of
facility in eliciting the transparency of every relationship and every
situation in which we find ourselves. That's the function of a college.
We would try to take that and push that to the bottom, not in abstraction,
but for the sake of seeing that a local congregation, the dynamic of selfhood,
fellowhood, and Godhood, is never located in time or space that
is, a given time and a given space. I must BE the local congregation in
that sense of dynamic In every situation. That is to say, self awareness
has to be going on. Spiritual relationship to Shinn has to be going on.
I tell you, I want to put this back again. When anybody criticizes Shinn
in my presence, I stamp with both feet unless I hear an affirmation of
that being. Do you hear what I mean? Every situation has to so to speak,
turn Shinn into spirit. He's a big blob of matter, and not a very likable
one either. Matter needs to be turned into spirit in every situation, not
some scintillating situation and not when you're with someone who delights
your being, every situation. You haven't got any sociality, you haven't
got any fellowhood if you've not learned how to turn matter into spirit.
You and I after last year
know in abstraction what a sodality is. We don't need to worry about that
any more. How do you get the dynamic of a college operating within the
dynamic of a sodality, without which you haven't got any locality? When
you take human relations out in the midst of the world, and set that aside
from the dynamic of eliciting transparency, you haven't got any human relations;
you've got some kind of animal relations. Mow if we did this it would mean
that maybe on Thursday night we have just college ... not ecclesiola, knowing
that even in that college, time and space don't define the college. The
college is when the symbolism of that night begins to penetrate every aspect
of our existence.
Now the second aspect of our problem is to redo our conception of a division. This is not the right way to put it. Most of our divisions, I believe, for the last two years have been lousy. Frankly, I don't quite know what you do about it. That is, I haven't known what to do. I had felt that maybe the cure of it would be to set Slicker here for a time, but that didn't work. If Slicker can't do it, maybe the Lord is trying to get something else through our skulls. So let us say for a moment that we see our divisions as the sodality. This means that those of you that have a hard time seeing, what an experiment is bracket the problem as to whether A division is a sodality or a guild. Just BRACKET that. This is what experimentation is. You just bracket a certain area so you can test something over here. That is, your rational facilities are always ahead in one sense of your data, or you are not experimenting. And then we self consciously try to bring into those divisions the dynamic out of the college. Do you see what I mean? That would that look like? I did not know this until recently but all last year, and I have done this . or years, I ran a division. I didn't know I was, I was trying to get ready for the local congregation, but I was running a division. You know, if I had known we wouldn't have had any fun. This year I don't think I'm really going to run one, I'll probably interfere with one. How do you get this experiment actually in flesh and blood? That is probably my assignment. Well, when I say I'm not actually going to run a division but to interfere, what I mean is that if that leader who sits up in front doesn't make that division dance with (Lord, I wish I had more language) spirituality, THAT'S when I'm going to move. Because by golly, I'm not going to sit any longer in any wooden sodality that is not what it IS, a dynamic in relation to a college and in relation to a seminary in its self awareness. This means an experiment at that point is really an experiment in the ecclesiola but one that gears in on the college, and another aspect of the same experiment that gears in on the division. I don't know how we're going to do this, but it is going to have something to do with the kind of conversation that we created last year called the spirit or guru conversations that we used this last summer. How it can9t be a formal thing and I've been fooling around for a few days. I suppose any hard headed strategist would call it wasting time but I don't call it wasting time. I think a man who knows who he is spiritually and is intentionally attempting to turn matter into spirit can accomplish in five minutes what
it takes a man who doesn't
days to accomplish. I am convinced of that, deeply. I think I saw that
in the month of June, I think I saw that in the month of July.
But then we have to fool
around in other areas. how do you do this? If anybody knows, then, for
God's sake, speak up. I haven't read the Bible for a long time, years.
Now mark you, I've read the Bible, but I haven't READ it. There was a time
when, due to the kind of training that I had had, you could name any book
in the New Testament and I could go to the board and chart it paragraph
by paragraph. That was a long, time ago. I haven't READ the Bible except,
you know, I'm going to HAVE to read the Bible. How in the wide world do
get something like think that fantastic snatch in Corinthians, without
which there isn't any RSI: 'My sure defense, my only weapon is a life
of integrity'? If you didn't read the Bible, where would you get that?
You can't teach RSI without that verse tearing through your being.
How would you dare to stand up and teach RSI if your being was not
grounded on that verse, for after all, who are you, you're some two
bit nothing, that's who you are, outside of the Grace of God. I know enough
about you and you know enough about me to know that's true. Well, I haven't
READ the Bible for years. I would like to go and teach it in the seminary.
I would do the art form method, that's form criticism.
But I want to read it as seeing Jesus as the guru and I mean Jesus is there in Corinthians just as much as he is there in Mark. He is the strangest guru. I have had fun recently. Who is the Indian name of the Deerslayer? Natty Bumpo. Now you remember in the last part of the book, the heroine is captured by the Huron Indians, and the way she left a trail is
that she kept tearing a little bit off her petticoat. (Cooper was born before the Freudian era so that was a sociological matter. If she had torn her dress, the Indians would have noticed.) So, anyway she left a little snatch here and a little snatch there. She must have thought the Indians were stupid and they couldn't see. But anyway the story is great up until the
time you get to be 58, and
then it gets rather childish. And old Natty Bumpo would go along and find
these hunks of petticoat and eventually he rescued her.
Jesus is sort of that kind
of guru. He just dropped something and went on. Like he says 'watch and
wait' or 'wait and watch,' and then he goes on. And it took 2000 years
for Natty Bumpo to come along and find that little patch of petticoat.
But that didn't seem to upset Jesus, he just dropped a little petticoat
here and a little there. He's not like the professional guru in India who
gathers his disciples around and really spells out the unfathomable mysteries
of the universe. No, Jesus was a petticoat guru.
Well, you know in our pseudodivision
we started, I don't know if we're going to go on with it, reading the Bible.
I've decided to start on Luke, but we're reading it just like snatches
of petticoat. We decided on Luke, but I just couldn't stand going through
those angels singing with shepherds beholding, so somebody said let's start
with Chapter 3. So we started with Chapter 3 and I looked at it and that
one has the long genealogy in it clear back to Adam and on JOSEPH'S side.
In the first sentence it apologize that Joseph was not the real father.
Now you wonder, why should you read that: And, of course it changed when
I realized that the reason they left it there was that was MY genealogy.
When you start on mine, you need to apologize for me before you start.
I don't really mean the petticoat
business, but what I did just then was the origin approach hermeneutics
of spiritualizing. Do you see what I mean. That's not what I mean.
I just got through doing it for you about myself with the genealogy. The
other part I read was about John the Baptist. It's got John going out beginning
to teach. His message and I never saw this before was, This
is the time of repentance. The forgiveness of sin." But that wasn't
his message. His message was, you have got to create a sign that this is
the "Time of Repentance and the forgiveness of sin." And he said,
"Don't give me that nonsense about being the children of Abraham,
etc., etc., etc. You have got to create a sign. God could raise up out
of these stones as many children of Abraham as he wanted. That's not the
way life is. You've got to create a sign that repentance and forgiveness
are a reality." That's what he said.
Then he's got three audiences
that come one right after another with a question. The first is the multitude
at large: "Well, what is this we shall do?" John says very clearly,
"Detach yourself." My moralistic Sunday school teacher she
couldn't help it, she was a bourgeois said that what he said was, "You've
got to clean up your virtues. You've got to become honest." That's
not what he said. He said, "You've got to be the sign of poverty --
detachment." Then the taxcollectors -- that's getting down to
the bottom of the barrel, isn't it? They said, "Well, what is it we
shall do?" And John said, "You detach yourself," all over
again. Then he really hits the bottom. The soldiers get uneasy. They say,
"What is it we shall do?' And John says, "Detach yourself."
That's the end, except for that last sentence, "And Herod's men took
care of John."
I'd like to tell this over
the next three times we meet. As far as I'm concerned, the reading of the
Bible in the midst of being a division is crucial; because learning how
to be all things to all men because you ARE all things to all men, learning
how to build the future because you ARE the future, earning how to be corporate
because you ARE corporate, and learning how to be spiritual because you
ARE spiritual -- that's a division.
Joseph W. Mathews