I have felt with passion that Vatican II was the
most important happening of this century. People have laughed
when I made that statement, because I could never explain exactly
what I meant. In Michael Harrington's book on the 60s, Fragments
of the 20th Century, he said that Pope John meant well with
Vatican II, but in actuality, he presided over the demise of the
Roman Catholic Church. Harrington could not see this, but what
he pointed to as "demise" is exactly what for me symbolizes
the greatest happening of this century. And, in the broad, you
and I have had the honor of participating in that happening.
With extreme caution, I told a group of people today
that I was proud to have gone through what we have gone through
in the last fifty years, and to have become the Religious vocationally,
in a profound sense. At the same time, I have avoided the pitfall
of becoming "religious." I have grown fearful of such
prose, for that statement is in the words of a child. If indeed,
we have succeeded in becoming Religious without becoming "religious,"
then it is by the grace of God. We want Him to understand that
we are aware of that. Therefore, in saying I am "proud,"
I have diverted in order to avoid the divine wrath that would
keep me from "getting to Heaven."
I use the word "proud" as the Appalachian
mountaineer does when he says, "I'm mighty proud to be here."
I am proud to have lived so long as to be part of this historical
moment. For if it is true that we have avoided becoming "religious"
we might authentically be part of this movement. Only one who
has grasped himself as Religious, with some degree of authenticity,
can be prepared for the athandedness which is creeping upon
this universe and into our lives. We have lived to behold many
"unanticipateds" come into being. But the new face which
is emerging defies description.
The state of our spirit being, at this moment, is
preparing us for this hour. I have thought much about our present
state. It comes to me in strange kinds of silences. Since last
fall, I have had intense trouble coming to terms with the fact
that the Dark Night of the Soul never passes away. It is here
for aye. This awareness brings into my being a Stillness, on this
side of which is Silence. Through the years, many people in our
Order have pressed for us to create exercises in Silence and Stillness.
Many times our Daily Office has been criticized for its lack of
Silence. I have been very, very afraid in that area. For what
the Quakers mean by stillness and silence, as I have grasped it,
is not what I am talking about. Nor is it some form of devotional
piety where one sits around and does not talk. Silence has nothing
to do with noise or unnoise on an immediate psychological
level. There is no way on earth in which Stillness or Silence
can be manipulated.
We have unbelievable exercises in the Solitaries
and the Corporates. Sometimes I have pressed myself as to why
we have not experimented under the rubric of Being under Intensified
Knowing, or Intensified Doing and Intensified Being or Being in
Being itself. I am not sure if there ever can be answers in that
area. I know that Silence somehow fits under those rubrics but
perhaps there is no such exercise. Even to consider such exercises
has made me afraid because I-as some of you-have sensed the profundity
of this dimension of humanness. I was afraid we might be pushed
beyond recovery if we stayed too close to this fire.
When I toyed with Silence in the past, perhaps I
did not grasp what is now becoming clearer. The other day, in
a conversation with several colleagues, we were talking about
one of our colleagues who had left us. Suddenly, I was aware that
I was experiencing Stillness. There was noise outside and inside
the room; but there was Stillness. And there was quietness. This
has happened to me several times recently. What I have begun to
see is what our fathers-and probably the fathers of many cultures-have
intimately known: that the sea of being is located precisely in
that exercise of humanness which has to do with the quiet, intense
struggle to believe what is impossible, but unavoidable to believe-that
the Dark Night of the Soul, once one has experienced it, is there
for the rest of one's life.
I came close to this, but did not really shoot at the heart of the matter when I gave the Being lecture. I spoke of the cloud of apostasy that is ever with you, once you have gone to the center. It is the desert one carries with him forever. It is the darkness one carries with him forever. It used to be called "hellfire"-the burning one carries with him forever. I suspect that he who speaks of Problemlessness, of Ontological Joy, of Certitude where there is no certitude, and of the most unbelievable of all states- Endlessness-knows naught of these unless he knows of Silence.
What I am trying to say has to do with the Silence
all of us have been experiencing these past few months. It has
to do with the Dark Night-the intense struggle of coming to terms
with the fact that God finally controls. The Dark Night does not
have to do with humanness; it is humanness. And that is preparing
us-without any solicitation on our part-for the emergence of this
present "athandness."
The other dimension of our spirit state is what I
call a vacuum. These past few months, I have been floating in
a vacuum, though in one sense, going a million miles an hour.
I have to go back to 1971. When we began to fool seriously with
the social dimension of life, we fell through the social into
the spiritual. We fell into the Other World. I know now what I
did not know then: there is no way any man has or ever will discover
the Other World in the midst of this world unless, by some stroke
of fate, he is forced to take with intense seriousness the social
aspect of life. That is why I say no clergyman can ever become
a Religious. Only a layman can become a Religious, and that puts
a double burden on those of us who had the hands of the Establishment
laid on our head, conferring the title "Minister." In
some way or another, we clergy have to discover what it means
to be secular men. In that sense, perhaps my "pride"
at becoming the Religious-without becoming "religious"-can
be understood. Laymen perhaps cannot understand how important
it is that I have avoided the pitfall of becoming "religious."
We have God to thank for allowing us to fall into the Other World-leaning
and crying on one another's shoulders. We began carving out highways
and pathways through the Other World that let us keep our sanity,
so that we might return with unbelievable treasure to share with
all of mankind. That is why we are clawing with broken fingernails
to find our way back to the social. Until we find our way back,
we run the risk of tragedy beyond any tragedy: drowning in the
realm of the Spirit. This has caused the vacuum. I see it in your
faces because it is in your being. But it is a sign that He is
with us yet. When the vacuum goes away, you will not be around
to know it in yourself, for you will have drowned in the Spirit.
So I am grateful for the profound vacuum I have lived with since
Fall. I believe it is a sign we are preparing for the Faceless
Coming that is at hand.
About the Faceless Coming. Some will call it this,
and some will call it that, and still others will name it otherwise.
Some will say it is a new religion and they will be wrong. Others
will say it is what we have called it in the past, the New Religious
Mode, but when it shows its face it can no longer have that name,
for that would be escaping a horrifying burden.
Today, in working with a group, I began to go back
through my life as a bigot, as a man of unbelievable prejudice.
The first prejudice I became aware of was religious prejudice.
I grew up prejudiced against the Roman Catholic Church, and not
only against the Roman Catholic Church but against the Lutheran
Church, and any other church than the Methodist Church. The further
one was from looking like what I was bred to be, the deeper was
my prejudice against him. I do not mean to boast now, but thank
God that prejudice has been cured in my heart. I love the Roman
Catholic Church and I would like to stand on a mountaintop and
shout that fact to the world- along with my love for the Lutherans,
the Presbyterians, the Disciples and the Baptists.
That was not my only prejudice. I was bred to be
prejudiced against Jews. I do not know if that prejudice was religious-it
certainly was not racial. I do not know what it was, but I was
prejudiced. I became most deeply aware of it when I taught at
Colgate University, where some of New York's finest young Jewish
men studied. It was no virtue of mine, but World War II made a
Jew out of me. I was able to cope with my prejudice when I saw
that I was a whole lot better Jew than any of those students were,
and I mean that. Thank God, deep healing has take place.
Then I became aware of my prejudice against Blacks,
and I would not dare to say that I have been healed in that area.
But I witness to God's glory for the ten years I spent in the
ghetto. I became an absolutely different human being because I
lived there, and I thank God for stumbling into that place. As
I look back, I would not have been any place else on earth than
in 5th City. Sometimes I become aware of a yearning of mine never
to have set foot outside its boundaries.
Later than any other prejudice, I became aware of
my cultural prejudice, my understanding that somehow the Western
world defined civilization and the rest of the world could only
be civilized when it measured up to our understanding of civilization.
I am ashamed to admit to you how old I was before I became aware
of that, but that was bred into me as deeply as religious prejudice
was. I always refer to my Gatlinburg Experience in 1964 or 1965
as my turning point. Third word peoples were gathered in that
Tennessee mountain town and I had been brought in to speak. That
is where I met some of the great leaders of our Movement from
around the world. One of them was a relatively young Chinese man.
I asked him where he was from and he said, "Kuala Lumpur."
I asked him three times to repeat the name. I was too humiliated
to say any more, for I had not the foggiest notion of where Kuala
Lumpur was, and I was at least 55 years old. I immediately went
to a map. I figured that since the man was Chinese, Kuala Lumpur
must be in the East, so I bypassed Latin America and Africa. Then
I stumbled on to Malaysia and discovered its capital, Kuala Lumpur.
So when we say we are becoming global, it means by God's grace
I am overcoming what I believe was my second deepest bigotry.
The deepest bigotry I have is my Christian bigotry. (This has to do with the Faceless Coming). It is the retention of two thousand years of Christian bigotry that is in the depths of my being. If, by God's grace, we had not stumbled onto the Contentless Christ, it would have been absolutely impossible for me to have seen this deepest of all my prejudices. What I mean is, not only have I grasped that contentless happening as that without which consciousness or consciousness of consciousness cannot finally take place in a person; but I have found myself a defender of creeds, a defender of liturgy, of ecclesiology and of theology. Only God can open the eyes of a bigot and I believe my eyes are finally being opened, giving me the opportunity to repent for two thousand years of the most fanatical form of prejudice there is.
It was an incomparable moment when 19th Century man
created the images of ideology and relativity. Whether the Church
knew it or not, the creation of those two images spelled doom
for the Church. When man invented ideology as a mindset, the two
thousand years of the Church was gone. Doomed. All the "fallen
out" clergy in this room were "felled out" by those
two images; not that they knew it, but they are knowing it now.
This doom for the Church is like the doom of the twostory
universe which went away for ever and ever and ever. That doom
is now becoming not only an intellectual reality, but also a sociological
reality. To put it specifically, when man invented ideology and
relativity, the sociological dimension of the Church was finished.
Our eternal friend, John XXIII, presided over the sociological
dissolution of the Church; Hans Kung did likewise in giving permission
to live in this world of ideology and relativity.
However, do not be confused. It is not as if one
bright and shiny day, ideology and relativity will disappear and
we can start anew to build the two thousand year Church. No, in
this post modern world, we have to live with that fact. But God
still rules and His people must ever march. Therefore, he has
given us the gift of Transpodane Christianity. I spent
a long time in the dictionary looking for that word. It came out
of the Middle Ages, when the Po River divided the civilized world
from the Barbarians. They called the land of the Barbarians transpodane,
meaning on the other side. I am a ConTranspodane man, a
man on the other side. And what is happening to Christianity is
that it is becoming Transparentized-Transparentized Christianity.
The word transpodane actually means "transpodicious,"
which means transparent. Christianity, in going through ideology
and relativity, is finding the New Essentialism. We know a great
deal about this, for we know its method. We have the Contentless
Christ spelled out in detail in the most secular course we teach:
RSI.
The second thing we must ask after the Transparentized
Christ is Transparentized God. This, too, has happened,
in the Other World chart. The third thing that is happened is
the Transparentized Spirit. Our Sanctification Course, or our
work with the Holy Life, is precisely that. One job remains in
this scheme-God, Christ, Holy Spirit-and that is the Church. What
is emerging on the distant horizon-without a face-is the Transparentization
of the People of God, the leaven which will produce the new sociological
vehicle which will enable men once again to live.
God is preparing us for the most subtle spiritual
experience we have ever had. He is preparing us for the most profound
repentance we have ever had to make. And what is most difficult
is that we not only have to repent for ourselves, we have to repent
for millions of people-two thousand years worth. Do not be confused,
however. I am not saying that a man in the Middle Ages ought to
say what I am saying. I stand in the 20th Century responsible
for everything that has ever happened in the Church. Without letting
us in on the secret, God is slowly disclosing to us the form of
the face that is, as yet, No Face. Oh, that we should have lived
to see such a day!
Joseph W. Mathews